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He Would Be Five Today

I keep thinking, “He would be five today.” Five years old. He would be going to kindergarten next month. He would be learning something new every day. I wonder what kind of boy he would be. Would he love to play ball? Would he be learning to ride a bike? Or would he like cars, especially red ones? I wonder what he would like.

I keep thinking, “He would be five today.” I wonder if he would bug his Dad to take him fishing. Would he want to go to work with him? Would he idolize his Daddy, as boys tend to do? Would he want to be just like Daddy? I wonder who he would be.

I keep thinking, “He would be five today.” Would his favorite cake be chocolate or strawberry? What kind of toys would he be begging for? Would he like computer toys or cowboys and Indians? Would he want to have tools just like big guys have? I wonder what he would like.

I keep thinking, “He would be five today.” I wanted to show him all about life. I wanted to teach him to ride that bike. I wanted him to beg for a story and to climb in my lap. I wanted to clean the chocolate frosting off his sweet face. I wanted to have him here, giving me hugs and clowning around. I wanted to roll in the floor with him and tickle his little toes and I wanted to pinch his cheeks and pull his nose. I didn’t want to wonder what he would like, or who he would be.

I keep thinking, “He would be five today.” I miss my little boy. I miss him for the precious baby he was and for the boy that might have been. I miss him for the memories I have and for the dreams that could have been. I miss the firsts in his life. His first step, his first word. I miss launching him into life…toddlerhood, kindergarten, adolescence, and graduation. I wanted to see who he would be.

I keep thinking, “He would be five today.” I cannot believe the years have passed. I cannot believe our family has survived without him. But I know we really haven’t. He has always been here. He will always be here. He is a part of our lives. We hold him in our hearts…and yet…I still wonder who he would be.

He would be five today.
By Lisa Sculley In loving memory of her son Joey,  7/16/92 to 10/7/92.

Sudden Infant Death Syndrome

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Dear Aaron

Dear Aaron,

I’m writing you today
To tell you Grandma loves you
and I’m missing you today
I know that you can’t read these words
but somehow that’s ok
Cause the postman can’t deliver
what I’m feeling anyway
I’m sorry
We didn’t have more time
We barely got to say hello
before we said goodbye
But I was there that day in May
a miracle came true
A Grandma’s love was born that day
The miracle was YOU…
Don’t worry
I’ll do the best I can
To help Mommy and Daddy
through the rough times they’ll both have
I know you see their sadness
and it hurts to see their pain
But time will wash away their tears
’til only love remains
In closing
I just want to say
I’ll see your smile in ev’ry child
that passes through my day
and when each day has ended
and twilight turns to night
I’ll look above and feel your love
for your star shines twice as bright
P.S.
Dear Aaron
I promise you today
You’ll live within this Grandma’s heart
’til you’re in my arms again…

By Roslyn Hurley
In memory of Aaron Lee Farrier
5/2/97 – 9/5/97 SIDS

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A Poem for Hailey

Dear sweet baby,
look down on Mama
tonight.
Send me a sweet kiss
and a little smile
in the twinkle of a star.
That’s all I have of you.
Dear sweet baby,
look down on Mama
tonight.
Send me a sweet dream
And a gentle touch
In the cool fall breeze.
That’s all I have of you.
Dear sweet baby,
look down on Mama
tonight.
Hear my lullaby,
and receive my prayer
Sent up to you in the cool quiet of
the night.
That’s all I have of you.

Written by Tammy Bollinger in memory of her daughter Hailey Rose, Stillborn November 11, 1994

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