And Nana Cried

It’s odd how distinct and vivid the events surrounding a child’s death become when you have moved from that time… It’s been three years since I lost my little Kierra…at 14 months old…barely enough time to even begin to open her eyes to the wonders of this earth and the love that was shared by [...]

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Email From The Heart

Sweetheart, I read your e-mail just before I went to bed. I was thinking about what to say when I turned out the light and the tears streamed unbidden down my face for a long time. I guess that when I let myself go, I realize that I probably have not worked through my grief [...]

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A Father’s Story

By Craig Pampeyan Three years ago, I was really looking forward to the birth of our first child. Having gotten married later in life, I was both excited about having a baby and anxious about all the usual first-time dad fears and concerns. I was trying to balance a job which required a lot of [...]

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Our Christmas Angel

She was due January 11, 2000. Our first baby. We had recently purchased our first home, so the timing seemed perfect, even though she was a surprise. We found out at our ultra sound appointment that we were having a girl and couldn’t be happier. It wasn’t until after we had picked her name, Natalee, [...]

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Support Through HAND

By Shonna Helm September 12, 2000 My son Nathan was stillborn on June 12, 1999. We delivered in Fremont, but lived in Modesto. Heidi Olson from HAND called around Modesto to find a support group for my husband Randy and I. I had never been to a support group and didn’t know what to expect. [...]

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Still a Birth

Michael Dilts and Elanah Kutik A “Routine” Exam Michael: To put expectant parents at their ease, the “living room” of the North Shore Birth Center in Beverly, MA is furnished with a well-worn yet comfortable sofa and armchairs. But Elanah and I were not feeling particularly easy that Friday morning as we say waiting for [...]

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Two Years Later

By Linda DeMartino I never knew her. I never saw her. I don’t even know for certain that my baby was a girl. I lost her at four and a half months. There was no labor, no mess, no nothing. One day I was pregnant, the next day I was not. My husband thought the [...]

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My Little Talina

By Stephanie Azri My husband and I had decided to have another baby with the other two we had. This was just before Christmas. I remember taking my temperature and telling my husband the “day” would be the 8th of January. Indeed it was, and I waited a couple of weeks before doing a pregnancy [...]

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